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As the feet plod along the ever deepening grooves
And the hands wring songs until the flesh wears through
I only do all that I know to do in the darkness of my cave
I am a splintered chance. I am a wayward clown
I don’t even dance when there’s no one around
And I only take what I’ve already found in the weakness of my days
As the heart explodes when expectations burst
And the mind erodes from its unsatisfied thirst
So the illness goes from bad to worse when there’s nothing left to save
I am a mournful dirge. I am a smile up-side-down
I fall through the dirt into a pit in the ground
As the hummingbird sings without making a sound, following my ways
As the flowers grow on the top of my head
Finally buried, though long ago dead
No memories, but regret instead accompanies me to my grave

Breaking the Frame

Falling from heaven, the me I constructed

From glitter and paper Mache

Don’t mean to sound bitter, and I’m not a quitter

But it’s just not who I am today

The color and sparkle, ended in debacle

The chasing around having fun

Was good while it lasted, but now it has past and

I’ll pass it on now that I’m done

I’m breaking the frame, I’m walking away

I’m gonna go look for what else I need

I’m jumping the track, I’m not looking back

Don’t tell me who I’m supposed to be

I gotta be free

Coming round full circle, back to where I started

Only I’m a bit wiser this time

Not changing direction or reaching perfection

But I’ll certainly take what is mine

The games and the pretense never made any sense

But I fit myself to the mold

I met expectations, greeted celebrations

Now I’m tired of doing what I’m told

I’m breaking the frame, I’m walking away

I’m gonna go look for what else I need

I’m jumping the track, I’m not looking back

Don’t tell me who I’m supposed to be

I gotta be free

Don’t wanna be a jerk yet, I’m not picture perfect

So quit trying to make me be

Just so there’s no confusion, my image was illusion

It never was reality

So I’m breaking the frame, I’m walking away

I’m gonna go look for what else I need

I’m jumping the track, I’m not looking back

Don’t tell me who I’m supposed to be

I gotta be free

It's Okay

It’s okay to be sad once in a while

It’s okay to be blue from time to time

It’s okay to have pain; it’s okay to complain

When not everything’s fine, fine, fine

It’s okay to shed tears when losing a love

It’s okay to have fears, everyone does

Yeah it’s okay to frown; it’s okay to fall down

So long as you get back up, up, up

It’s okay to behave unbecoming

It’s okay to make a fool of yourself

It’s okay to attack; it’s okay to react

When you’re protecting yourself, self, self

It’s okay to place blame when you’re confused

It’s okay to refrain when you feel used

Yeah it’s okay to shout, okay to let it all out

Doesn’t mean you have to lose, lose, lose

So it’s okay if you feel tired

It’s okay if you want to cry

It’s alright to say, that you’ve had a hard day

Doesn’t mean you have to die, die, die

Cause it’s okay to be sad

More than every once in a while

You’re still valuable; you’re still beautiful

Even when you don’t smile, smile, smile

For it’s only temporary sorrow and it’s only momentary grief

Every mountain has a valley, every pinnacle has a relief

Every season has it’s changes, all the cycles that we go through

And it’s all a part of the journey, who we are and what we do

So cherish every memory, accept both the good times and bad

Don’t regret a single moment, for you don’t get any back

Wherever I Go

Surrounded by the walls closing in on me

Crushed beneath the weight of missed opportunity

Rehearsing my mistakes and all the could have beens

Wish that I could run away from all the mess I’m in

But wherever I go, there I am again

Each time I try to change I end up back where I begin

And it’s a long and lonely road for me

Nothing as far as the eye can see

Just wandering aimlessly through a sea of sand

Do I dare believe there’s a Promised Land?

Buried by regrets over what I haven’t done

Wasting time away isn’t helping anyone

But how do I escape when I feel dead inside

I want to be free, it’s not like I haven’t tried

But wherever I go, there I am again

Each time I try to change I end up back where I begin

And it’s a heavy heart full of misery to bear

Something that I can’t explain, but I take it everywhere

Just wondering what to believe when I don’t understand

Do I dare to think there’s a Promised Land?

Tortured by my thoughts and by everything I feel

I give them power over me as if they are what’s real

But Your love is waiting for me if I will receive

I don’t have to change, You only ask that I believe

For wherever I go, there You are with me

I have nothing to fear, for You are everything I need

And it’s like a new day dawning when the sky is filled with light

When I see Your Spirit rising and shining through my life

Just wonderful to be held securely in Your hand 

And finally realizing this is Your Promised Land

For wherever I go, there I am again

Forever in Your presence in a life that never ends

Yes

My life was lived with unclean lips and dirty hands and vanity trips

My world revolved around little ol’ me
My own opinion was all I could see

Then lightening flashed inside my head
And I heard a sound I’ll never forget

He said go, tell everyone to repent
Tell my children I love them, you could say I was sent

I said yes, that’s all it took
Then the whole earth trembled and the heavens shook

My life was turned upside down that day
Nothing has ever been the same

God said go, He said go, and I said yes

When I asked how long I would be serving this way
He said until your body reaches the grave

When I wondered what would be expected of me
He said to overcome every impossibility

Like to be strong and be not afraid
But it can only be done by the power of My grace

I said yes, that’s all it took
Then the whole earth trembled and the heavens shook

My life was turned upside down that day
Nothing has ever been the same

God said go, He said go, and I said yes

I said yes. No matter where I had to go
No matter what I had to say

No matter what I had to do
No matter what I had to face

I said yes, that’s all it took
Then the whole earth trembled and the heavens shook

My life was turned upside down that day
Nothing has ever been the same

God said go, He said go, and I said yes

Peace, Be Still

Be still and know that I am God, I am here, I am never far, I am with you. Be still and know that you are loved, never fear, and never give up, I’ll deliver you. But still you know you have to do your part, for me to move you need to still your heart.

Peace, be still, is what He told me, Peace, be still, then He came to hold me. He washed my tears away and gave me a brand new day with Peace, be still.

Be still and trust upon my Name, My power, the goodness of My ways, I’m for you. Be still I will be the same, this hour, forever and always, I promise you. But still you know you have to do your part, for me to move you need to still your heart.

Peace, be still, is what He told me, Peace, be still, then He came to hold me. He washed my tears away and gave me a brand new day with Peace, be still.

This is the one command I’ve given you, acknowledge me in everything you do, lay down your life, follow me and receive, all I ask of you is to believe.

Peace, be still, is what He told me, Peace, be still, then He came to hold me. He washed my tears away and gave me a brand new day with Peace, be still.

A Living Sacrifice

I didn’t get what I wanted. It may not ever be. 

My heart’s deepest desire, I might never see. 

Will I still be grateful? Will I humbly serve 

If there’s no way I’ll ever take what I think I deserve? 

Is my true love conditional? Are there stipulations which must be met 

Before I’ll give my all? Is my free gift to be withheld? 

Are there strings attached to my offering? Will I pretend that I can’t tell? 

I may not know how or who or what or when or why or wherefore but 

You request a living sacrifice upon the alter of my life. 

You didn’t meet my expectations or fulfill my perceived vow. 

I’ve been disappointed. So what will I do now? 

Will I stay committed? Will I run away? 

If I’m consumed by these concerns, am I wasting today? 

Is my whole world coming undone? 

Am I too lost in my own thinking for ever helping anyone? 

Is my intent not good enough? 

Are the promises I thought you made referring to other stuff? 

I may not know how or who or what or when or why or wherefore but 

You request a living sacrifice upon the alter of my life. 

All the excuses I can make cannot replace the path I take. 

The choice will always rest with me, and I decide extensively 

To be a living sacrifice upon the alter of my life. 

So what if I didn’t get what I wanted.