A Living Sacrifice

I didn’t get what I wanted. It may not ever be. 

My heart’s deepest desire, I might never see. 

Will I still be grateful? Will I humbly serve 

If there’s no way I’ll ever take what I think I deserve? 

Is my true love conditional? Are there stipulations which must be met 

Before I’ll give my all? Is my free gift to be withheld? 

Are there strings attached to my offering? Will I pretend that I can’t tell? 

I may not know how or who or what or when or why or wherefore but 

You request a living sacrifice upon the alter of my life. 

You didn’t meet my expectations or fulfill my perceived vow. 

I’ve been disappointed. So what will I do now? 

Will I stay committed? Will I run away? 

If I’m consumed by these concerns, am I wasting today? 

Is my whole world coming undone? 

Am I too lost in my own thinking for ever helping anyone? 

Is my intent not good enough? 

Are the promises I thought you made referring to other stuff? 

I may not know how or who or what or when or why or wherefore but 

You request a living sacrifice upon the alter of my life. 

All the excuses I can make cannot replace the path I take. 

The choice will always rest with me, and I decide extensively 

To be a living sacrifice upon the alter of my life. 

So what if I didn’t get what I wanted.