I could have been a hero. I could have been a millionaire. I could have been so much further gone, maybe even already there. I could have been magnifico. I could have been a superstar by now. I could have made all my dreams come true and made the world a better place somehow. I could have been wonderful. I could have been heaven sent. I could have been all these things and more, if you weren’t absent. I could have been happy as a clam. I could have been stronger than you know. I could have been the best that I can be, but I can’t do it alone. You left me hanging out to dry instead of investing in my life. Now the most that I can do is guess, what I could have been instead of living it.
No more blaming or excuses. You made your choice. Now it’s time for me to make mine. And I choose to stick around and help my children become all they can be, as much as I possibly can. I may not be there as much as I was before the divorce. But I’m here. They may not ever appreciate it. But I know I’m doing my best. I guess that’s all any of us can do. I can only be who I am and not what I could have been.
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Christie,
ReplyDeleteBe proud of who you are and what you have become. I promise your children will appreciate you. What they need is your love. Its not the money or the things you can give them its the real love that comes from your heart that will help them the most.
God Bless,
Becky
Thanks. I was upset with my dad for a long time for not being there for me when I was growing up. But knowing that he loves me now makes all the difference in the world. I'm sure my girls will have a lot to overcome, no matter what choices I make. They have to live with their own choices, just like I do.
ReplyDeleteIt was similar for me growing up. It so sad that kids suffer the most in a divorce. How long have you been divorced? Are you working on a reconcilliation? Decisions are so tough. Just love them and they will be ok, kids are resiliant. You sound like a very nice person and I wish you the best.
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