ToDie

I tried to do recovery on my own

But it doesn’t go well when you’re lost and alone

Others around me served to amplify

My own blank expression and emptiness inside

I began to go backward and was losing ground

From having too little up for how far I went down

My friends were fair weather and family too far

To help meet my needs when I fell below par

So I simply slid deeper down into the pit

With no reassurance there was a way out of it

And life kept on ticking tick ticking away

As the present was lost in a blur called today

I feel helpless and hopeless with nothing to give

But I don’t want to die before I ever live