Here Stand I

Here stand I
Turning my back upon Your glorious light
The shadows dance across my mind
They’re saddening, yet entrancing
I’m mesmerized, then I realize
How far I am from where I ought to be
Why does this keep happening to me?

Here stand I
Returning to the promise
Claiming your deep love
Refilling my spirit
Lifting my hands up
Raising my voice in praise
In spite of how I feel
And how far I have strayed
Regardless of my wandering
And going the wrong way
You see me and You know my heart
No matter where I am
Here I stand

Here stand I
Forgetting everything I know
Only to find that on my own
Ambitions leave nothing to show
It drives me mad
It’s frustrating and sad
I feel so bad
I’m not holy and/or honoring
When I’m foolishly chasing
Happiness
Why must I fall into this mess?

And yet here stand I
Simply awaiting Your reply
Anticipating
And pressing on
The journey is what makes me strong
So here stand I