Transformed

My eyes are fixed on the unseen

The life I live beyond the dream

With colors swirling intertwined

With weightlessness, absence of time

And energies that never die

But transform into you and I

A New Day Dawns

You called, me out of the darkness into Your light.

You spoke, life into my weary and sleepless night.

I was lost upon the oceans of just going through the motions

tossed by contrary devotions with no end in sight.

But then a new day dawns with peace to carry on.

Right now before my own eyes I can almost see the sun rise.

I'm eager with anticipation as You reveal Your revelation as a new day dawns.

You heard, me cry in desperation from a lonely heart

You turned, and breathed new life into me as a place to start

I may never reach perfect, but You’ve given me direction

released me from the rejection that tore me apart

And then a new day dawns with peace to carry on.

Right now before my own eyes I can almost see the sun rise.

I'm eager with anticipation as You reveal Your revelation as a new day dawns.

I was once trapped by my sorrow, now I have a bright tomorrow

And the light might still be hidden, but it’s glowing in the distance

As a new day dawns with peace to carry on.

Right now before my own eyes I can almost see the sun rise.

I'm eager with anticipation as You reveal Your revelation as a new day dawns.

As a new day dawns, as a new days dawns, and a new day dawns. 

Discovering the Sun

I was taught to believe nothing would ever change

Except for by some miracle things could possibly still get worse

I discovered “rock bottom” had further to fall

The concept of hope had no meaning at all

I saw others around me experiencing life

Nothing ever seemed to go wrong for them

I was bitterly jealous knowing they didn’t deserve it

Yet they got sunshine while I was stuck in a dark pit

I exhausted my options trying to figure things out

Looking for ways to alter my mood or my mind

I chased every pleasure that came into view

Whatever might numb my intense pain I would do

I had many a demon haunting me at night

And my days were troubled by the cares of this world

I had to eat and find shelter to survive

My most basic needs caused the most compromise

So forgive me if I tell your preachers to stuff it

I believe my experience over your stupid babble

Nothing you say can affect how I feel

I don’t need your religion, I need something real

If only I knew love could overcome fear

And that I can learn to love myself even if no one else does

Then maybe I could stand firm every time I want to run

It’s the only sure way to discover the sun

Live for the Line

Live for the line, not for the dot

Give all you are and all you’re not

Keeping forever at the front of your heart and mind

All of the time, live for the line

There are desires deep in my heart

At the very core of my spirit

Revealed in my life, Your plans for me

Make them loud and clear, let me hear it

Lay it on me, unmistakably

Within my soul, give me a sign

And teach me how to live for the line

Live for the line, not for the dot

Give all you are and all you’re not

Keeping forever at the front of your heart and mind

All of the time, live for the line

It doesn’t matter where my gifts lie

Only that I’m willing to use them

I was sent to go forth and multiply

It wasn’t my option to choose them

Don’t despise what was planted

Or walk away empty-handed

We’re all commanded to shine

And to live for the line

So live for the line, not for the dot

Give all you are and all you’re not

Keeping forever at the front of your heart and mind

All of the time, live for the line

I’m not any better or any worse

For writing down my life in verse

I shouldn’t compete or compare

We’re better off if we don’t go there

We are learning to share our design

And to live for the line

Live for the line, not for the dot

Give all you are and all you’re not

Keeping forever at the front of your heart and mind

All of the time, live for the line

Keeping forever at the front of your heart and mind

All of the time, live for the line

If Only

I know you came to earth to die for me

I know you live to set the captives free

I know you are the way, the truth, the life

I know you want to give me peace for strife

If only I could live it, like I believe it’s true

If only I could give in, and follow after you

Then maybe I could shine a ray of hope

Instead of clinging to the end of my rope

I know you came to bring a better way

Than drowning in troubles from day to day

I know I live to glorify your name

And if I listen my whole life will change

If only I could live it, like I believe it’s true

If only I could give in, and follow after you

Then maybe I could shine a ray of hope

Instead of clinging to the end of my rope

If only I could live it, like I believe it’s true

If only I could give in, and follow after you

Then I could shine your light like I’m designed to do

I know you came to earth to die for me

I know you live to set the captive free

If only I could live like I believe

If only

Do I Know Him

I know his name is James, and he’s a football player. But he still gets good grades and still wears a retainer. But who he is at home each night I really couldn’t tell because although I see him in the halls, I don’t know James that well.

Do I know him, or do I just see him at school? Do I know him? Is he wise or is he a fool? Can I look into his eyes and see the man inside? Do I know him?

I know his name is Johnson, and he’s an engineer. He’s got a brand new baby and has been married for a year. But what kind of a dad he’ll be I really couldn’t judge because although I’ve heard his intro, I know him that much.

Do I know him, or do I just see him at work? Do I know him? Is he kind or is he a jerk? Can I look into his eyes and see the man inside? Do I know him?

I know his name is Jesus, and He died for my sins. I know I need to trust Him because that’s where faith begins. But why He came to earth at all I really couldn’t say. Well I’ve heard all the stories, but do I know His way?

Do I know Him, or do I just see Him at church? Do I know Him and how He’s always true to His Word? Can I look into His eyes and see both God and man inside? Do I know Him?

Well He knows me by name right down to the last letter. He can see my heart and how I want to know Him better. And He knows all about you, and can see everything you do. And He wants you to know Him, to really know Him.

Do I know Him, or do I just know His name? Do I know Him? Because you know it’s not the same. He can see through your disguise and He knows who you are inside. But do you know Him? Do you know Him? Do you really know Him?

It Ain't Over

This is not what I imagined. How can it be my fate? You said You had a plan for me, all I had to do was wait. So I tried to be patient and always did my best to stand firm under trial and withstand every test. I went through the fire and reached the other side, but the goodness of Your promise isn’t what I feel inside.

Is this the end? What I fought for? Is this the only thing I gain from all the years I spent at war? Is this the point? What You have for me? Is this the grace Your Word says You extend to those who are in need? If this is Your idea of what it means to be at home, then I guess maybe I’m better off alone.

My dearest child, do not despair. For you have yet to see what’s coming or where you’re going from here. I have a plan, this much is true. You can’t begin to imagine all I have stored up for you. So be strong and take courage, you’re gonna need it for the journey, it’s a treacherous voyage. But You’ll be fine. I know what’s best. Just take one step at a time, and I will do the rest.

It’s not the end. Not even close. I’m still preparing the way for you the way you need it most. That’s not the point. The way you feel. The temporary trappings of this world are not even what’s real.  Here is my grace. Here is my love. I’m living deep within you not somewhere out there above. Just take my hand, and see my heart. Today is not your grand fulfillment; this is only where you start. It ain’t over ‘til it’s over. On that you can depend. This is the beginning, not the end. It ain’t over ‘til it’s over. On that you can depend. This is just the beginning, not the end.

I Love You

One day I’ll be with you forever

Too close for mere words to express

Three times you asked, “Do you love Me?”

For You, I can only say, “Yes!”

One time is all that it takes me

To gaze upon Your holiness

Three words are all I can muster

For this day I can only confess:

One, that You love me

Two, You died for me

Three, I live for You

Four, that I love You

Taste

Licking up every last drop

Savoring the sweetness

Consumption doesn’t stop

Satisfaction weakness

Scents

Smelling begins the whole affair

Olfactory can’t be denied

Aromas tingling the hair

As nuzzling pushes them aside

It Was You

The truth went undoubted

The facts were quite clear

Founded in knowledge

In what would adhere

Ideas understood by a discerning mind

Discovering wisdom not easy to find

Listening , learning

Seeking, searching

Haunting, yearning

Amongst all the answers

Something was still amiss

The light glowing within

A soft and gentle touch

Longing for the presence

Of a smile and a kiss

Missing the warmth of love

Missing the intimacy

Missing the reassurance of personal worth

Once held

Now strong

And full of peace

It was You, only You, all the while

Respect Yourself

Respect yourself enough to walk away

from any situation that does not allow you to serve others,

does not allow for personal growth,

and does not allow you to be happy with yourself the way you are.

Sweet Nothings

Sweet nothings whispered to me

Hot breath on wet skin

Gentle caresses grazing the surface

All the way down and back up again

Warm lips pressed against me

Passion twisting bodies together

Desire taking over in reckless abandon

Wishing to stay here forever

Sensual kisses

Surrender defined

Emotional explosion

Restrained to the mind

Come Home

Lay down your defenses, Remove your disguise

Let go of pretenses, Simply realize

That He, yes He, oh, yes Jesus He loves you

That He, yes He, He’s calling out to you

Oh weak and weary child come home

You don’t need to keep struggling out there all alone

Oh my sweet child, sweet child, it’s time to come home

Lies pile up around you, Still you’re empty inside

Emotion’s boiling over, The fears you try to hide

But only truth can free you, Straight and unrevised

Words of life will heal you, No need to be surprised

That He, yes He, oh, yes Jesus He loves you

That He, yes He, He’s calling out to you

Oh weak and weary child come home

You don’t need to keep struggling out there all alone

Oh my sweet child, sweet child, it’s time to come home

Your enemies surround, And your walls are crumbling down

But you won’t sustain harm, For you’re safe here in His arms

For He, yes He, oh, yes Jesus He loves you

That He, yes He, He’s calling out to you

Oh weak and weary child come home

You don’t need to keep struggling out there all alone

Oh my sweet child, sweet child, it’s time to come home

Oh weak and weary child, You’re my sweet, precious child

Oh weak and weary child, It’s time to come home

Rescue Me

I’m in the lifeboat the struggles of men

Trying to prove my worth all over again

Is there a rescue? Is there a friend?

This boat’s overcrowded and we’re all sinkin’

Rescue me, Rescue me

I lift my hands so You can see

I’m waiting here for delivery

Caught in a storm on a raging sea

But You rescue me, You rescue me

Oh You rescue me, You rescue me

Stuck in this lifeboat it’s sink or swim

This game of comparison I’ll never win

Am I forsaken? Am I forgotten?

I’ll fall or fly, but I’m diving in

I lift my hands so You can see

I’m waiting here for delivery

Caught in a storm on a raging sea

But You rescue me, You rescue me

Oh You rescue me, You rescue me

No more of the lifeboat I’m safe within